Opened Eyes

Opened Eyes

As long as eyes are opened,  the world is alive for me. When my eyes would close one day the world will due for me.

I am not sure whether world will die or I will!

If reincarnation is the truth of life and soul never dies then I am immortal forever except that I live and die and keep changing bodies from sea to sky.

If Sun may dies then my eyes see night unless my eyes have lights.

My life is a joke because I take it as a joke perhaps that's the reason my jokes make me cry.

My life would be of what color if my eyes refuse to light! Yet eyes are nothing but sense of blue sky full of beautiful rainbow of seven colors of light.

What we see might not be seen the same to other species. But who knows they might see better than our eyes.

My eyes are not honest to my mind because when I see a green then I am curious what happens to rest of six colors of light.

Light is clever to my eyes because it shows it only one of the seven colors of lights. Rest it hides from my eyes. Very clever.

Is this is true and known to my mind then why mInd deceive my eyes. Why myself deceive to myself. Perhaps this is the truth of life to deceive the reception of conception.

Let it go and let it be. Why I care if simply I close my eyes. And why I care if I simply close my eyes.

When no hope is left and you still get it!

When no hope is left and you still get it! Satnam Singh Sidhu BC

A time comes in life when you feel alone and you have a strong feeling that nobody is on your side. No body care about you and no one want to listen to you.

During this time you ask your new friends about your dilemma and they tell you what to do just based on what they know about you and what is their experience in that field.

But sometimes you get an answer which may astound you. You might have never seen yourself from that prospective.

I shared my feelings with a new colleague which is becoming my new friend. I asked her that I am very sad inside now a days and I really don't know why? Another colleague entered the conversation and showed his interest in the topic. He also asked me why I feel like that?

I get caught in a situation where I was really expecting an answer to that question from her and later from him. Instead they asked me to share why I feel like so?

I said I really want the answer from you guys and that is the reason I shared my feelings with you. My friend said that I must be hiding some sinful thinking otherwise I should be able to share my feelings with them.

I was astound from their observation about me and my feelings. I never got such a comment about myself in whole life.

It may be true that I might a person of that caliber who is committing sins in his life without acknowledging the sins. But on the other hand I think since my new friend hardly knows about me and my past life, she may wrong in her opinion about me.

But I never dared to talk to her about this matter after this. It is more than a week and I am still wandering about myself. Who I am? What she said is true or not!

I don't want to engage her in this topic deliberately because chances are she may realize what she said and may change her opinion simply to comfort me.

But question arises apart from that what is sin and what is not? Is there a straight answer to this or it is relative to a situation?

This is my new topic of search. What is SIN?

I asked many of my colleagues in last week and I got various vague answers to it. In past couple weeks I found myself in a situation where I got upset with my manager for not getting me enough help from the service department. He politely asked me to slow down and do every thing you can by yourself. Because know body can help me in that situation. Even he asked me to go home if I can not handle the situation. I told my manager that I don't think there is any need to go home for myself and if someone really have to go home then support staff should go home and not me.

Few days later one of my colleague got upset with me and blamed me for interference to his work. He did not stop there and further blamed that I interfere in every body's job and nobody likes me here.

Even though first part was understandable and I knew why he was upset because another colleague shared his sale to half. But later comment is bothering me now.

Is he really right in his opinion. Am I really a man of inconvenience to others. Am I bothering others during the work hours.

So far two things are on my agenda now. Am I sinful and am I inconvenient to others at work.
I really don't know and I want to find a way to resolve the issue. Why? Because I can not live in peace if I ever feel I am bothering anyone without reason.

How I am going to find the answer, I don't know. I hope someone may suggest me something.

By the way during the same week I have found some hope in my old friends. I found one of my friend through internet after 26 years. Also I found a group of people who wanted to help some needy students and I am part of it and some of my old friend initiating a project on my request to form a trust fund so that we can continue helping needy students in future as well.

I have got some comfort out of it. I have seen some hope to my feelings through my old friends and yet I am seeking help from my new friends.............

If you have hurt someone in your life knowingly or unknowingly, what is the best way to make it up!

I like to share a little further into this subject. It is true most relations or friendships break up when we hurt someone. And I am pretty at point pretty much everyone goes through this experience. Sometimes you may realize later that even though it was the fault of the other person you still feel guilty of yourself..

But what is the remedy to it. The person that was once your friend or partner might have gone too far. May be he/she might have totally forgotten about you. But here you are thinking about him/her. Perhaps as we grow up we start thinking about the past. It reminds us about good times and bad times. Good times always give us sense of happiness or make us smile. Whereas bad times tend to shake us or make us feel guilty. Because in past we were always less matured and today that maturity reminds us of that stupid mistakes we made. It is our new wisdom, which force us to go back and review the mistakes you made.

It is fine to realize the mistakes we made but the question is is there any possible way to fix that problem so that next time your wisdom does not remind you of those moments. There was a time when if you really want to express your self to someone, the best way was to go and see the person. That remains  true today as well. But a person to whom you want to see and express your feeling about that past incident, is not necessary has to be in front of you now a days.

So at least you have one less problem at hand. With the advent of new technology, it is very easy to find the person over the internet, which otherwise might be impossible in most cases, unless the person lives in the same city. So finding the person over the internet and communicating with him/her is way easy than in old time. It is like half the battle over once you find the contact.

Rest is up to us how sincere we are to express our feeling. And say you do decide to express your feelings for the mistake and you get the response back and your friend or partner tells you that there is no need to be sorry for that because I have already forget about it, but since you were so thoughtful of that, I really appreciate for that. That gives such a feeling of relief that only person who actually go through this experience can understand it.

On the other hand there are possibilities that person does not want to respond to you. Or you are having difficulty getting hold of that person. In that case your feeling and your efforts to communicate with the person may put you in different state of mind. You start thinking of some kind miracle to happen to help you connect with that person. But your soul is searching for the solution and until you have the answer you are constantly wondering about it or one day you may stop thinking about it and forget about it as a bad dream or you may think it was destined to happen like that and you can not change the destiny.